I had raised thirteen hundred horse and three battalions
of sepoys to attend upon me; but as I have no resources to support them,
I have been obliged to remove the people stationed in the mahals
[districts] and to send his people [the Resident's people] into the
mahals, so that I have not now one single servant about me. Should I
mention to what further difficulties I have been reduced, it would lay
me open to contempt."
In other parts of this long remonstrance, as well as in other
remonstrances no less serious, he says, "that it is difficult for him to
save himself alive; that in all his affairs _Mr. Hastings had given full
powers to the gentlemen here_," (meaning the English Resident and
Assistants,) "_who have done whatever they chose, and still continue to
do it_. I never expected that _you_ would have brought me into such
apprehension, and into so weak a state, without _writing to me on any
one of those subjects_; since I have not the smallest connection with
anybody except yourself. I am in such distress, both day and night, that
I see not the smallest prospect of deliverance from it, since you are so
displeased with me _as not to honor me with a single letter_.
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